Tuesday, 27 November 2012

HAS GOD FORGOTTEN ME?



 “………….Fighting temptation to give up virginity... Will be turning 43 in January and this fleshly desire is pressing.  It hasn't been easy having more and more ungodly men to ward off especially when I feel alone... Every where I turn my friends talk about either their work or their husbands or their children or their family... all of which I don't have…………..”

I culled the above paragraph from a mail sent to me today. I could feel a tear dropping down my cheek when the email implied a sense of being forgotten by God. Especially considering this season of the year when the last month is fast approaching and time seems to have gone by with little hope of anything good happening.

The possibility of feeling rejected and abandoned is very high. All the things ever hoped for in 2012 do not seem to have happened and may not happen. More painful it is when ungodly people seem to have what they want and are not burdened with all the yokes we carry.
Every victorious woman of faith goes through times of dryness. These include dryness in every sphere of life. Drought of trustworthy friend and special person to love is the most excruciatingly painful to endure. The sense of being alone and unloved is killing. Most of the time, words alone cannot explain why this should be happening to us at all.

Listen my Sister, the whole of 1Samuel chapter 1 (Please read) focused on the life of a woman called Hannah. She married Elikanah but was unable to have children. So her husband decided to take on another woman as second wife who had sons and daughters. Imagine the pain of being abandoned for a woman who began making babies like a factory and she couldn’t. She must have felt emotionally abandoned by the husband, emotional taunted by the contentious second wife and sadness of heart at the birth of each of the other wife’s children. Verse 6-7 said 
But her rival wife taunted her cruelly, rubbing it in and never letting her forget that God had not given her children. This went on year after year. Every time she went to the sanctuary of God she could expect to be taunted. Hannah was reduced to tears and had no appetite.

Most painful was the fact that the Bible said it was God who closed her womb in Verse 5. You may ask why? What has she done? Why did God close her womb? What was the reason? My answer is God has a bigger plan. God had set her up for a show of His glory without her knowing.

Did Hannah fold her arms and rebelled against God? No. Did she try shorter routes? NO. What did she do?
Hannah, driven by desperation, pursued God to a place of reckless prayer and weeping before God. Without dignity or laid down formality she begged God for a son. She knew she had a destiny that must be fulfilled. She realised the fulfilment can only be found in God. She chased after God with all fervent prayer of hope and not of self-pity. She fought to overcome the consuming ache of inadequacy within herself. She was willing to go to war in order to fulfil destiny and not live a waste. All the weapon of prayer she used is still available to us all today.

Did God answer? Yes, He did. God responded to her. God saw her tears, He heard her prayers, and He rewarded her faith because He saw the passion of her broken heart. Hannah’s son, Samuel was the only one we know of in scripture. The other woman and her children were no longer heard of.

My sister, only you can develop within you a very passionate zeal to see your God given destiny come to fulfilment. If you become so lethargic and complacent, if you put on the coat of ‘it doesn’t matter’, if you become less bothered and just carry on living, you will read of others breakthrough and no one is ever able to read yours. 

Allow all the present dryness to drive you towards God the almighty and not away from Him. Away from Him doesn’t cost God anything but may cost you all the fullness of what He has in stock for you.

Like the paragraph of the email I quoted earlier, if that is where you are and you desperately want God to come through for you, inject very serious passion into your prayer when you get to the place of pouring your soul and your tears to Him.

Like Hannah, may you leave your place of prayer in peace. May you find favour before Him and may your petition be granted you. May your countenance be changed from sadness to full joy. May you be fed with the food of rejoicing.

May your glorious end be greater than your former in Jesus name. Amen.

I love you Sister. 

JESUS CARES.

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